I have been reflecting this past week, on my weight loss journey and on my running journey. I have learned so much about myself, and I found out that I need accountability. I am sure that I am not the only one, or at least I hope not.
For me with running I need a goal, something I am working towards. I do so well when it comes to training because I had a goal in mind. I knew what I needed to do to accomplish my goals. I followed the schedule and just did it. This week was hard for 2 reasons, one because running became a habit, and I looked forward to my daily run. Secondly because I couldn't and I don't like being told that I can't. I like to prove people wrong.
I am scared because right now I am "benched" for a while due to my injury, and I will not be able to run. I need to find a way to stay active, with out hurting myself any more than I already did. I am scared because I don't want to loose what I have already accomplished. I am scared because I found that I was getting depressed, which I have been battling most of my life, with out running.
Running helped me to feel good about myself.
The one good thing is I still have my goals ahead of myself - I am going to run the Columbus 1/2 marathon, and my goal is to PR that race with a time under 2 hours. I also set a goal to PR my 5K time with a time under 27 minutes. Both I can accomplish, but it is just going to take time, first I need to heal, then I need to start training again.
I also found that I need accountability when it comes to eating. I gained so much weight during marathon training, because I was just eating, and not caring. I did not write down what I was eating. I was not making the best choices. I know that the weight gain has so much to do with the mental struggle that I have with running. I know that I would be faster if I was less weight.
I actually weight 2 lbs more than the first time I joined Weight Watchers back in 2/10. I know that this is not where I want to be. I joined Weight Watchers again today, to have the accountability of weighing in each week at a meeting, and the fact that I have to write down what I am eating. I know that was the secret to my success before, and exactly what I need to do to get back on track.
The one good thing about this start to Weight Watchers is I know what to expect. I love the fact that I am already active. Since I can not run, I have a plan ahead of me to start cross training and weight training. I really feel that the secret to my success when it comes to running is the combination of the weight loss, and the cross and weight training.
I have a plan, I have the accountability I need with Daily Mile, Weight Watchers, My friends and of course my Blog. I will succeed. I will reach my goal weight and I will achieve my running goals - the difference this time is that once I reach them I will not turn back, I am going to keep being accountable!!!